Ask and you shall receive. On Sunday I prayed for God to show me my wretchedness that I might see Him better, and grow more in Him as He developed all parts of me... the result? One seriously tough spiritual week for me! Monday and Tuesday I was very convicted of my pride. Wednesday and Thursday I was convicted about not going the extra mile as a servant, and only doing what I have to do, not all that I can do. Thursday and Friday I also fell into a gossip pit. All of this made me wonder: Is this a heavy attack from Satan, or, (an even scarier thought) is this just what/who I really am/have been lately, and God finally removed my pride-filled glasses so that I may see myself and my wretchedness? God sure does answer prayer! But this morning in my quiet time I just thanked God for showing me my wretchedness. I want to become more and more disciplined in the Lord, and grow all of my spiritual muscles, not just the ones that are fun/easy to develop. So, my prayer is that God helps me to turn my ear in tune with His Holy Spirit that I may hear His promptings and act accordingly, instead of in my flesh. It has made me have a more grateful attitude as I have once again been reminded just how much I NEED my Jesus.
